• About Leela

    No Prize for Pain

    by  • April 26, 2019 • Uncategorized

    You know what I’m noticing? I’m finally reaching college levels of productivity again. In my junior year of college I was doing really well, by many standards. Yes, I had depression and anxiety, yes I was probably underslept. But I was singing, I was working, I was skiing, I was going to class. My...

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    money where my mouth is

    by  • January 5, 2019 • contemplative

    I’ve been working for some time at my #deFB project, where, without closing my FB account I take gradual steps to unlatch from the teat.  I’m ready for solid food again, and to decide when and what I eat at least somewhat independently. Sometimes, this involves considering paying for content.  Fortunately, my considering paying...

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    the moment of truth

    by  • January 5, 2019 • Uncategorized

    So here we are.  Last week I suspended my Patreon creator account.  I felt like what I was offering was too scattered, too diffuse, not really meeting anyone’s needs–and it showed.  I don’t have enough subscribers to make it a good business move at all. But now I have this thing, where I have...

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    I seem to have a lot to say

    by  • December 31, 2018 • Uncategorized

    about saris.  And I’ve been to India more often, and I’m buying more saris on the internet.  In fact, saris (as a revolutionary garment but also as a beautiful thing, which is identity-revolutionary for me) are becoming a kind of a hobby. So expect to see more about that. I’m also thinking that there...

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    finding my people

    by  • November 6, 2018 • Uncategorized

    There’s this moment when you find your people the ones who breathe your air and speak your language on lips that look like yours. My people, among other things, wear draped clothing, long lengths of fabric that swirl around our feet and promise great things if you have some small patience.   One of...

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    White Saris on the Fourth of July

    by  • July 4, 2018 • Uncategorized

    I got up today and wasn’t sure what to wear. I decided to wear the 6 yard length of white muslin I got myself as the most basic of basic saris. It happens that white is the color of mourning in India, a color typically only worn (by women) as widows or the recently...

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    on not-fitting

    by  • May 9, 2018 • intensity

    There was a side gig for which I had four interviews. I didn’t get it. I’m not sure how to feel about it.  On the one hand, it would have been good work.  On the other? On the other I keep getting nudges from the universe to re-expand my work back toward the body...

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    on saris

    by  • April 3, 2018 • draped clothing, India

    I started this blog YEARS ago, and wrote a lot about how Indian clothing had influence my thinking, but didn’t talk much about actively wearing it.  There are a lot of reasons for that, but times have changed, and here we are, in 2018, and I am unironically, uncostuming-ly wearing saris as part of...

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    the rules that make it easier to be good

    by  • March 29, 2017 • Uncategorized

    I want the handbasket we’re in to have a picnic lunch and bread and brie and a checkered tablecloth that we can spread on lush grass in a country that isn’t being bombed and breathe clean air and invite the neighbors.   I’m feeling a little doubtful at the moment. but that’s what I...

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