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    seeking impermanence

    by  • January 11, 2015 • Uncategorized

    The thing about impermanence is that it cuts both ways The plant in the cup dies The wild things die Our pets die So do we. On the other hand this Too Shall pass: Illness, grey days, the seeming Endlessness of winter. Mostly. For a select few The illness passes only into death, The...

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    when family comes to work

    by  • January 3, 2015 • Uncategorized

    One of the things about being a minister, or working in any kind of volunteer organization, is that you start to see really clearly how the lines between work and home get blurred. Volunteers, after all, are not in work mode–they are on their own time, doing something for fun or to contribute because...

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    Navigating the Pain

    by  • December 29, 2014 • Uncategorized

    I’ve been thinking about how pleasure meets intense pain. Here’s what today looked like. Want to hear me read this? It’s here. So I’m lying here on my back, trying to navigate the incessant pain, the kind that presses and burns and shoots from one place to another. It doesn’t stay still, but there...

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    on becoming a mage

    by  • December 1, 2014 • Uncategorized

    Nobody ever tells you Hey, wake up wake up, this Is the day you become a mage! The magician school comes for you at noon! It’s not like Harry Potter No Hagrid no professors who turn into cats, no owls… …well, not many And they don’t carry mail. Just messages that turn your head...

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    It Will Change You

    by  • November 29, 2014 • Uncategorized

    What people don’t tell you about healing from trauma would fill a book, an encyclopedia, all the leaves of all the trees of Sherwood Forest, all the grains of sand in the Caribbean. What people don’t tell you could scare you off from ever doing the work or it could make it seem like...

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    This is How I Pray

    by  • November 12, 2014 • Uncategorized

    When I pray this is how I pray Hands clasped before me on my pillow Curled on my side Before the day has breached the raw and sleepy ramparts Here where the call to prayer is too loud to be overrun by lists or fears Of not enough, not good enough, Of being devoted...

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    What if we all need time away?

    by  • November 10, 2014 • Uncategorized

    I’m part of a lot of organizations. That happens when you’re committed to the power of community. You get into communities for business, communities for health and wellness, communities for personal growth, communities for healing, communities for recreation. The communities I’m part of all love commitment. They think it’s awesome. Some of them have...

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    Geeky Mystic: The Hallways are Hell

    by  • November 1, 2014 • Uncategorized

    If the Law of Attraction works, why are people still homeless? That’s the gist of a question posed to me recently.  I think it’s an important question.  Why?  The basic idea of the law of attraction is that your energy and beliefs and behaviors create and/or attract what happens in your life.  Believe in...

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    Geeky mystic: getting better too fast

    by  • October 30, 2014 • Uncategorized

    Can you get better too fast? Not really.  Ask anyone in pain how much longer they’d like to hurt, given a choice. But. There’s this thing. When you are sick for a long time (I’ve had depression for decades) and then the fog starts to lift, it leaves you with a bit of a...

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    Geeky mystic: musings on trauma

    by  • October 29, 2014 • Uncategorized

    As I said recently, I’m a geek.  And I tend to run experiments on myself, which is a time-honored tradition among psych researchers (and others; see also: hemlock). Recently I’ve been making seven-league-boot levels of progress in therapy and related places.  Why?  Because a whole bunch of techniques are gaining legitimacy and visibility, and...

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