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    Geeky mystic: getting better too fast

    by  • October 30, 2014 • Uncategorized

    Can you get better too fast? Not really.  Ask anyone in pain how much longer they’d like to hurt, given a choice. But. There’s this thing. When you are sick for a long time (I’ve had depression for decades) and then the fog starts to lift, it leaves you with a bit of a...

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    Geeky mystic: musings on trauma

    by  • October 29, 2014 • Uncategorized

    As I said recently, I’m a geek.  And I tend to run experiments on myself, which is a time-honored tradition among psych researchers (and others; see also: hemlock). Recently I’ve been making seven-league-boot levels of progress in therapy and related places.  Why?  Because a whole bunch of techniques are gaining legitimacy and visibility, and...

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    Geeky Mystic: the starfish principle

    by  • October 28, 2014 • Uncategorized

    This post is the second in a series about geeky mysticism.  The first post is here. You’ve probably heard the story about the starfish-throwing little kid, who is busy throwing stranded starfish into the sea.  An adult comes along and says, “There are so many starfish on the beach!  Why bother?  How can you...

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    I am a geeky mystic. How did that happen?

    by  • October 27, 2014 • Uncategorized

    I’ve hinted about this before, here and there: I’m a critical-thinking, logic-oriented intuitive mystic who believes in magic.  In other words, I’m a geek and a mystic and a mage.  This makes some of my friends crazy (thank goodness they love me anyway!) because for them, geek and mystic are mutually exclusive–you can’t be...

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    it’s not about self-esteem

    by  • September 1, 2014 • Uncategorized

    Usually, I post here about pleasure, because…well, because yummy and awesome and so useful.  Because pleasure makes us clear and whole; because pleasure gives us direction; because pleasure makes the difference between drudgery and service, between weariness and joy. BUT. There’s more to life, and this has been bugging me for a while. I...

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    beauty matters (I am an athlete)

    by  • June 27, 2014 • Uncategorized

    Just took a nap on the beach. That makes two hours today on the beach, one lying down.  Here’s why that’s important: outdoors is not the enemy. It is awesome. Some days it is more nap-worthy than others but it is not a bad place to be. If, like me, you have made it...

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    on swimming (I am an athlete)

    by  • June 25, 2014 • Uncategorized

    I went swimming today. Which might be no big deal. Except… many things. Let’s start with the complicated: I had drowning dreams as a child.  I used to wake up choking, mouth clamped shut. And when the swimming teacher threw me in the pool to “teach” me to swim, I held my breath and...

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    Moving Comfort Endurance dress: review

    by  • June 8, 2014 • Uncategorized

    Let’s start here: Moving Comfort makes INCREDIBLE sports bras.  So when I saw that they were making dresses for being active in, I was thrilled.  YAY, I thought.  The bra plus a skirt! Not so fast. My dress is an XL in black, and runs true to size.  Empire-waisted, with obvious seams, it is...

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    on gender and dresses

    by  • June 8, 2014 • Uncategorized

    I am an athlete. Athletes, as I am discovering, come in ALL shapes and sizes and other things. Do not let your brain determine who is an athlete and who is not.  It will be wrong. Now generally I consider myself female-gender nonconforming.  What does this mean?  It’s complicated, but for the sake of...

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